Tuesday, March 29, 2011

march 29

ok! im getting my new tattoo this saturday @ 2:30 - sooo excited/nervous/everything.

going to take about 4 hours...i want to do it all in one sitting, none of this going back shit.  i want what i want when i want it!!!!  ive been working extra hard on tightening up my core so the tattoo will look awesome - whatever it takes huh?

as far as the guy issue....hard to say.  i have not seen anyone for years - im not exaggerating either...over 3 years and when i allow those feelings back in to "feel" something for someone else i try and try and try to not act like some uncontrollable twit instead of the mature and strong person i know i am.  its like a mantra i play over to myself - dont screw this up, dont do what you always do that sends them running, dont rush things, dont go overboard, dont text him let him text you first, its all in your head, dont think about him cuz you know hes not thinking about you. 

FUCK!!!!!!

WHY DO I NEED MORE FUCKING VOICES IN MY HEAD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Sunday, March 20, 2011

march 20

OMG!  the guy ive been talking to is omg gorgeous - smells awesome and his eyes! they are very light blue color and i cant stop looking at them.  shit!  i have to stay focused!!!!!!!!!  i cant screw this up - i dont want to make the mistakes i feel have damaged my past relationships.  focus focus focus

anyway - thought i would give you guys an update on that front :)

now on to other things.  as you all know ive been doing jillian michaels exercises dvds and i just bought the 30-day shred with weights yesterday.  going on a 3 hour bike ride wi my friend, we may get in about 30 miles so i wont have the energy to do her dvd today, but i will tomorrow.   i am seeing results with her dvds and want to keep mixing it up so i can tighten my abs because i found a tattoo i want - FINALLY.  actually, a fellow blogger (cannot remember who, so if it is you that has this kind of tattoo you have excellent taste :) )  this is what i want - what do you think?

Friday, March 11, 2011

march 11

so what can i say about my extended leave?  other than i have been doing the same thing - working and school.  sorry for not posting lovelies 

BUT i am happy to report that i got an "A" in dosage calculations!!!  it was an 8-week course, they just doubled the class time so we didnt have to go the whole 16 weeks, now i just have to focus on cell biology.  holding a "A" in there now, have to maintain it for the rest of the semester.  and this fall i will take anatomy & physiology, nutrition and microcomputer apps, that is all the pre-reqs to get into nursing.

the better i do these classes the higher i rank for getting in.  they only allow 75 applicants in so the competition is fierce!  i have to bring my "A" game.haha

on to other things.  im a creeper of sorts on everyones blog.  i read them every day but rarely comment - bad me!

my car is broke down and it is being worked on, going on 3 weeks now..thank goodness i work from home and my parents live around the corner and i can just use their car if i need to go anywhere.

still exercising to jillian michaels dvd's.  i have 3 now, going to get the 30-day shred one next..i heard it is killer. 

oh - i am talking to this guy...this is huge for me.  i have been single for sooooo long.  i hope this turns into something :)  we JUST started talking, so i will keep you guys posted