merry christmas everyone!
i hate to sound scroogish but im not feeling so much in the christmas spirit. it doesnt excite me anymore. i know it is about being with friends and family, but i am with them all year long,(except for my bio dad and that family) so technically it is just another day for me. plus this not getting presents thing is depressing. i got 1 last year and i will get 1 this year, from my bio dad and his wife.
plus this year i am on-call with work today and i cant go anywhere, which totally sucks ass. im getting burned out with my job. working from home has its advantages but i dont think it is the best solution for someone prone to depression. it is too convenient to isolate yourself from the rest of the world. i was so depressed and bored last night i went for a night run - 4 miles, in the dark and seeing as i live in the country, no street lights. just me and the quiet road. rather nice actually. but im sure the people driving past me thought i was crazy...and they'd be right :)
so i decided to do something about that - i enrolled back in school again and going for RN. classes start jan 10. pretty ambitious but i have always been fascinated with medicine and patient care, i dont have a queasy stomach or anything, needles dont bother me plus i will make the same or more than i am now. plus i just go in, do my job and leave - no more project deadlines or meeting presentations. a totally new career for me. im excited for this new part of my life to begin.