dreary rainy day. yuck. plus its getting colder. yuckyuck.
i am so flippin bored. i exercised twice today, paid my bills and did some laundry then i decided to check on fb what my old bf is up to. to paint the picture this is a guy that i really really liked and he treated me great. he broke up with me because he said he had an issue with our age difference (he is 11 years older - guys are supposed to like that right?) and we live to far apart. 25 miles. we dated for over a year.
anyway, it hurt like hell when he ended it and that pain should be enough reason for me not to date or get involved. sure it sucks sometimes and i get lonely, but hell, the pain is too great.
so, i pull him up on fb and hes not a regular user anyway so most of the time nothing has changed. but i saw he chnged his status to 'in a relationship'
even after 2 years it felt like someone punched me in the chest. shes beautiful btw. skinny, gorgeous auburn hair. now i secretly think he dumped me because im a fatty
so that answered the battle going on in my head - gonna get skinny!